My Old Neighborhood

 I almost hate to contribute to the ICE discourse, because it doesn’t seem like there needs to be discourse. ICE is blatantly evil. That should be enough. 

First, there’s the gravity of the moment. I’d like to write cool, dreamy analysis about art and landscape. That makes me happier than writing twitchy current-events prose. But fuck, the moment is pulling me in. Load a John Dos Passos newsreel, let’s go baybee.

Renee Good was murdered on the south side of Minneapolis, on the corner of 34th and Portland, just a few blocks over from 38th and Chicago, where George Floyd was murdered. Contrary to what you may see on the right-wing news, this part of Minneapolis isn’t a violent inner-city slum in which the only law is the law of the jungle while liberal politicians helplessly flail, and contrary to what you may see on lefty social media, it isn’t a quilombo of BIPOC resistance either. It’s a neighborhood like many others, remarkably diverse, with significant white, black, and Latino populations, largely working class, but with a fair number of comfortably middle-class homeowners as well. Sure, it’s a little worse for wear, but the area has a fine and well-preserved stock of Victorian and Edwardian homes, lovely little parks and lakes, and an abundance of independent merchants serving the local community, hippie cafes and hopelessly unprofitable record shops next to Ecuadorian butchers and Ethiopian salons.

And, once upon a time, it was the neighborhood I called home.

 

So fuck it, I don’t want to spend too much time in this shitty, shitty moment. Let’s get cool and dreamy about art and landscape. The landscape that has, much to my shock, set much of the political tenor of the past decade.

It was one of those living arrangements that one can only have when young and free. My roommate was several years older, a graduate from the same college spinning his wheels between political campaign work, hosting tables at the Bennigan’s out by the airport, and supposedly writing a book about Deep Space Nine. We had three cats. Our neighbors an agoraphobic lesbian across the hall, and a rotund middle-aged woman who drove an Escalade with a leopard-print steering wheel cover below. Wealthier neighborhoods were just on the other side of Blaisdell Avenue. On one side of the street was a minimalist Stella Artois billboard. On the other side was a Modelo billboard in Spanish with fake-titty Mexican telenovela blondes in crop tops. The local branch of the sureños kept tagging the building, only to be painted over by the landlord. Their little arms race. I looked up our local gang. They had a Myspace.

I barely worked, because I really didn’t need to pay for much more than my rent, and had a bit of cash saved up that I could burn through. What little I owned could fit in a ’95 Camry. I scrounged a mattress from an alley – don’t judge me – and who needs a bedframe when you’re 20? We didn’t have internet, although we could sometimes get onto our neighbors’ wi-fi networks. We skinny dipped in Lake Nokomis. We drank Pabst and Evan Williams bourbon and smoked rose-flavored hookah and listened to Justice and Glass Candy on our second-floor porch – a Minneapolis specialty, ideal for cool Northern summer evenings. We got yelled at by the tweakers in the building next door who threatened to call the cops on us, and we yelled back that they wouldn’t call the cops because they were tweaker trash. Apologies were made in the morning, and we’d put on Joni Mitchell’s Blue and spark a joint and sweep the floors and empty the ashtrays from the night before.

And then, my roommate left, packed up his things, leaving me with an apartment empty, save for a mattress, a sofa, and a floor lamp. With no work, nothing to do, I spent my days reading library books, as well as the countless used books I’d brought, stacked up on the floor, next to my mattress. The sunlight came in over the wooden floors in the afternoon as hookers smoked in the parking lot. I got an awful sunburn tubing on the Apple River, and I ripped a postcard-sized bit of dead skin from my back, and I couldn’t believe how beautifully it caught the light. I would walk everywhere. Maybe down Minnehaha, past the old grain elevators painted with the verdant fields of the hinterlands, a little bit WPA, a little bit Stalin. Or maybe just over to the bodega above the basement mosque. Maybe I’d buy something, maybe not. I lost a good 30 pounds that summer, and when I returned to college for my senior year, I was, for the first time, considered “hot” by some.

And other than a few visits, that was it for me and Minneapolis.

And yet Minneapolis followed me.

The din of Cedar Avenue after late-night punk rock shows and quiz nights with cheap pints of Summit Extra Pale ended in the Somalian delis, eating spicy as hell falafels, long before anyone started talking about daycare fraud.

Stopping for gas in Brooklyn Park, before that suburb’s representative, Melissa Hortman, at that time minority leader in the Minnesota Statehouse, and later speaker, a competent, well-meaning technocrat if ever there was one with a strong sense of a social mission in her good Catholic heart, was murdered by a Christian nationalist with Mittyish operator fantasies as delineated in his wildly exaggerated CV, an estranged family, and a laundry list of grievances against imagined enemies.

And that bodega with the basement masjid I mentioned earlier? A feckless George Floyd tried to pass counterfeit bills there only to be shot down by Derek Chauvin. The city burned, on the precise streets where I’d once read Antonio Negri and Michael Hardt’s “Empire.” And in the aftermath, any serious calls for racial justice quickly devolved into hollow rhetoric, faux-radical stances being adopted by the professional classes with a complete lack of skin in the game, consultants being called in to convince consumers that Unilever actually cared about anyone, mewling performing arts collectives trying to “decolonize” their abstruse set pieces, Black Lives Matter transformed into a floating signifier, actual black Americans as poor and fucked over as ever, police budgets still proudly high, complete with a new stock of Halo Warthogs to prepare for the Fallujahfication of American cities.

Until that fateful day last week where a mother of three got merc’d by a fat fuck in tactical gear as she tried to make a three-point turn in the middle of Portland Avenue while ICE goons went about their usual business of harassing random people of color.

 

But even when I lived there, there were signs. That August, the I-35W bridge collapsed into the Mississippi River at the peak of rush hour, the first sign that America’s proud mid-century Keynesian infrastructure was reaching the end of its natural life, with no one willing to foot the bill to replace it.

And the past nearly two decades play back, quickly, in reverse, until I’m in the Minneapolis summer, riding my bike through the summer night to the house party in Como, and the horizon still seems endless, the midsummer sun dipping behind the lake.

The Summer Vibes Never Die

 On Sunday, 15 June 2025, I do what we all do. I wake up and check in on the world.

Then I see this beauty, shot at a Beirut rooftop club:

 

“Missiles in the sky, but the summer vibes never die.” Sun emoji.

Click the link for the funky beats and Baker Street-level sax solo: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DK5Z41RMRkz/ 

Netanyahu, of course, is hiding out in Greece right now. The Israeli Air Force One is apparently called “Wing of Zion.” Maybe he wanted summer vibes too.

The water is for the coffee is taking too long to boil. 

Meanwhile, back in my country, one Minnesota Democratic lawmaker has been killed, another injured. The presumed killer was the head of a security company called “Praetorian Guard,” but was apparently debased to living with a roommate, an old buddy. His CV said he’d worked for “the world’s largest convenience store chain” as a flex, meaning he had managed a 7-Eleven. Said roommate seemed to be a Papa John’s employee, and now the image everyone is going to remember of that poor bastard is him crying and reading text messages to the news cameras as he sweats through the Papa John’s polo stretched over his gut.

The suspect was experiencing “mental health challenges” per the local sheriff’s office. “Challenges.” 

I got baked last night and made post-midnight eggs au gratin with hella hot sauce. Probably a bad idea.

There’s probably still shit going on in Los Angeles, but Trump had a birthday rally in DC so all eyes were there, with troops failing to march in time to generic rawk and roll music that sounds suspiciously AI-generated. Sponsored by Coinbase, Palantir, UFC (natch), and Scott’s Miracle Gro. 

Miracle Gro.

Who’s been sending me messages? Seoul, Paris, Kyoto, and New York all send their regards, or at least their memes. I send back a picture of the pool outside (there are summer vibes, we must remember, even if it’s the bleak and rainy monsoon season here) and I have to ask myself whether to use the sunglasses emoji, or to playfully allude to the fact that I want to use the sunglasses emoji. 

The signs at the other rallies read “No Kings!” and I genuinely can’t figure out what this means. General dissensus, I suppose. I don’t see much in the way of concrete policy goals, mostly just one big frowny-face emoji.

Meanwhile, marines are detaining US citizens in Los Angeles after storming elementary schools, cops firing, point blank and with intent, at an Australian journalist reporting on the scene, Latino cops roughing up Latino protesters, LAPD and LASD shooting rubber bullets at each other, and Brian Wilson is dead.

 

But I repeat, “summer vibes never die.” Brian Wilson, at least you were given the dignity of being called profoundly mentally ill, not challenged. 

I really shouldn’t have had those late-night eggs.

The coffee is almost ready, though. 

What they tell you, five things you can see, four things you can feel, three things you can hear, two things you can smell, one thing you can taste. Zero things you can vibe on, summer or otherwise.

I don’t know that that necessarily works. 

But I hadn’t even noticed my foot was bleeding.

Bugman in a Termite Mound, or The Barcades Project

One of the best ways to learn about a cultural or political epoch is to look at its epithets. Back in the ‘60s, the standard term for a certain kind of paranoid and gin-blossomed right-wing freak was to call them a “Bircher.” By the time I was a political animal, that had turned into “teabagger,” and of course in both eras, the term “fascist” was pretty standard – a term completely delinked from historical fascism, but awfully easy to deploy against the usual array of cops and chamber of commerce scharführers.

The right, for their part, haven’t been big on novelty in their slurs. “Communist” of course was always a favorite, along with its derivatives – “red,” “pinko,” and so forth – but those had largely been subsumed by more self-identifying terms: “liberal,” “feminist,” (and at least at its origin points, “woke”) and so forth, with the pejorative indicated more by the tone than the terminology. I am deliberately leaving out some of the terms used in the American South – lest large black men materialize in my living room and kick my ass for using certain words without the necessary pass.

But in the post-4chan era, they’ve gotten a bit more creative. What’s off-pissing is that frankly some of them are actually pretty pointed insults. Things being “soy,” for instance – fuck yes, there are pictures of me with my neatly trimmed stubble, chambray shirt, and Japanese glasses in full soyface mode, although it was more likely to be over a bottle of vintage Burgundy or an industrial ruin than a Marvel movie poster or something made with bacon, no matter how epic.

However, the term du jour for a certain type of effete metropolitan male seems to be “bugman,” coinage of Costin Alamariu, a.k.a. Bronze Age Pervert, someone you probably don’t need to be aware of. He tries to do the Nietzschean bitter aphoristic philosophy thing, but comes off as an undergrad tryhard who keeps the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy in an open tab. He also tries Nietzsche’s humor, and fails miserably. However, there’s a regrettable shortage of definitions in his Bronze Age Mindset, and all we get are allusions to the nefarious means by which bugkind seeks to overthrow noble souls.

So for a working definition, let’s go to the Substack of former writer of painfully unfunny British sitcoms (The IT Crowd, Black Books) turned professional transphobe Graham Linehan:

“On closer inspection of the day to day life of a bugman one finds at its core the implementation of social erosion, everything that is taken from its origin is likewise bastardized into a regressive, virtual, stir-crazy version of its former self: eSports, Fantasy Football, Copy ‘n Paste Vidya (à la Bethesda/Ubisoft), New Atheism, Beards-as-personality, etc. each of these characteristics is of course filtered through the latest piece of cutting-edge high-brand technology the bugman can afford. One may have noticed already that bugmen’s ‘personalities’ are nothing more than the accumulation and composition of various popular brand names, technologies, TV shows, bands etc. The bugman is entirely defined by that which they consume. Thus the bugmen easily assimilate into their own groups, for their archetypes and traits are based off material possessions, as such grouping is quick, painless and has the added benefit of instantaneous conversation: ‘Sweet mechanical keyboard dude!’”

It’s not 100 percent wrong. And in the critique of the late-capitalist subject… the parallels with, say, Mark Fisher are numerous, even if Fisher was a genuinely humanistic thinker and Linehan is a whiny tittybaby who happened to get something right. Although given the fact that Linehan is himself a chubby, Twitter-brained new atheist, methinks the lady doth protest too much.

(And in another point against his credibility, he used a picture of Owen Jones as a type example, and frankly it’s difficult for me to imagine Owen Jones ever saying “sweet mechanical keyboard” in between his principled coverage of Gaza)

But that is the rough assemblage of ideas that was on my mind when my office moved from a rather dowdy modernist office tower built at the height of Bangkok’s ‘90s irrational exuberance to a shiny mixed-use development on what for years been a vast concrete lot on some of Thailand’s most valuable property. You can still smell the fresh paint.

Anyone who’s been in a similar complex knows the drill. It’s deliberately confusing – in that same way Vegas casinos are – office blocks and condos unified with a network of interconnecting passages, with near-identical cafes, ramen shops, Instagrammable objects, and earth-tone boutiques with messages about sustainability and pictures of gently smiling cotton farmers (definitely not the Uighur ones). The network runs on facial recognition scans with omnipresent and means both subtle and unsubtle to keep out the poors. The view of one of inner Bangkok’s last remaining slums is covered with a statue that reminds me of Goatse (if you weren’t there for the Y2K shock internet, don’t look), only a few mid-rise government housing blocks peeking out over its prolapsed hole.

But saying “high-security postmodern complex suxxxxxx” is nothing new, nor is a discussion of its innate bugmannishness. We’ve all seen Fight Club. Or for that matter. The Lego Movie. By now it’s hack. But when I look down at the ugly corporate-minimalist sculpture dangling over the chain coffee shop, I cannot help but entertain ideas. Needless to say, everything is not awesome.

So what is far more interesting to me is not the fact that it sucks, but the ways in which this genre of non-place is perceived. Because architecture easily becomes a proxy for culture and politics more broadly – unlike the other arts, which are increasingly siloed off into specialized and inaccessible realms, architecture shoves itself in your face daily.

Dense, mixed-use, transit-accessible, sustainability-minded development is posited by self-styled “urbanists” as a solution to the woes of our current era, and there’s a truth there, and their hearts, at least, are in the right place. We just crossed 1.5 degrees Celsius of mean global temperature increase, our dependence on the automobile is slowly killing us, and North American cities in particular are seemingly designed to alienate and isolate. So why not build things that are readily accessible by metro system or other public transportation, that combine residences, office space, and retail, that get people out of their cars and hopefully sharing a coffee in a more welcoming and inclusive atmosphere?

To which the main riposte is always… well then why is it so shit? Whether it’s the ugly condo-over-barcade-and-vegan-noodle-bar developments with chilly concrete plazas that constitute dense infill across the United States, or the sort of Erewhon’d and Uniqlo’d complexes with an architectural idiom that builds on the worst ideas of Rem Koolhaas and Zaha Hadid that have blossomed all over Rising Asia, the actual environment fails to live up to how it is marketed. In these ostensibly public spaces that are run purely for the benefit of the private sector, dependent on mass surveillance and creepy biometric data theft, rife with hostile design elements, community simply becomes a shared purchasing pattern. Sustainability is at best a means of getting a tax break, and is more likely just another branding element. Inclusivity is great as long as it sells more matcha lattes.

Furthermore, my particular complex is just so fucking jankety – how fragile-looking some of the fittings are, as slapdash as Ikea furniture, the persistent sense of the temporary, the way the QR code readers I have to use in lieu of giving them my facial data are unstable at best. Again, we should know how this ends. The story of how the nice tweedy middle-class British professionals went ape in High Rise was published in 1975. My god, the story of an attempt at a firmware update leading to mass chaos, R.U.R., was written in 1920. The fact that the term “robot” comes from a play about robot failure should have been a warning, shouldn’t it?

So the complex has become targets for traditionalists of one kind or another. Some of them are architectural traditionalists, of course, who want to return to golden-ratio classicism and Ionic orders, and who are mostly just harmless nostalgics.

Others are rather more sinister -- those who don’t want to return, they want to RETVRN. Those whose conservatism is an incoherent blend of 1950s suburban American dream, Victorian moralism, grandeur both Bayreuth operatic and classical Roman, and completely romantic and mythological conception of nation and volk that quickly reveals itself to be more a function of aesthetic desire than any kind of actual intellectual or political program. The lack of program is important here – that would require them to actually commit to the bit.

Consider Alamariu, whose gigglewanks about “xenoestrogens” and silly classical-hunk posturing that’s frankly one step away from full-on man-boy love have filtered down through the brain-rot of the discourse, particularly in its techie, Peter Thiel-affiliated corners, whose participants seem pretty terminally bugmale – far too chinless and Fortnite-brained to have a chance at Periclean heroism.

So the bugman’s termite mound is a product of the capitalist institutions, with the only major challenge to their hegemony being pure reaction – appropriate in an era in which the representatives of electoral politics in so many of the Occidental power centers have devolved into a bunch of impotent centrist dorks on one side and a group of hooting vandals on the other side. But regardless, the processes of wealth accumulation continue – more power is in the hands of a tiny brahmin class, protected by the surveillance state, while the rest of us burn in the trenches.

How hot that fire burns and how deep that trench is both vary.

As for this bug? He could use a whiskey.

A Letter from a Leftist to His Liberal Friends

Weren’t expecting that, were you? Neither was I.

This is one of those times when I feel obligated to write something up. Of course, there’s too much already – the world has been inundated with lameass think pieces for a long time, and this might be classed as one of them, but I’m taking the risk because it’s useful and perhaps even necessary to at least reflect on what one said at a certain time, and I happen to do my best writing in the public sphere – it keeps me honest.

(and by the way, if you do want a brilliantly reasoned think piece, here’s a good one by Branko Marcetic at Jacobin)

So, liberal friends, I am writing this because I like you. I share a great many of your values – I am horrified by inequality, keen to make America’s disastrous healthcare and education systems work. I am in favor of increased access to abortion, legal marijuana, LGBTQ rights, and all the rest. And indeed in Tim Walz, I saw one of the few American politicians I actually respect, and I hope he goes on to bigger and better things.

But where I probably depart from you is in the analysis, wherein I fundamentally believe that the coming shitshow is a symptom of capitalisms recent and old. I’m not going to go citing Marx and Gramsci and Adorno (that’s boring, isn’t it?). But they’re on my bookshelf, and their perceptions are infinitely more resonant to me than any of the weak tea offered by professional liberals, particularly at this point in late-stage capitalism. And to that end, let’s examine the reactions by a professional liberal and a democratic socialist, and compare and contrast.

I know many people feel like we are entering a dark time, but for the benefit of us all, I hope that is not the case. But here's the thing, America, if it is, let us fill the sky with the light of a brilliant, brilliant billion of stars. – Kamala Harris, Howard University

It should come as no great surprise that a Democratic Party which has abandoned working class people would find that the working class has abandoned them. First, it was the white working class, and now it is Latino and Black workers. While the Democratic leadership defends the status quo, the American people are angry and want change. And they’re right. – Bernie Sanders, at home in Burlington

Which sounds like a more accurate read to you?

 So while I was surprised – I wasn’t stunned. And looking back, I’m deeply ashamed that I didn’t see Trump 2 (now with J.D. Vance, freshly back from his glow-up at the MAC counter) coming. Every single fucking mistake from the 2016 campaign was repeated. Celebrity support and good vibes in lieu of policy. An election treated like a coronation. A failure to stand for any meaningful position other than “not Trump,” and fail to differentiate the candidate from her predecessor. A complete dismissal of the entire left wing of the Democratic coalition. A courting of neoconservative hawks. When it comes to reproductive rights, while she correctly made that a highlight and while the Dems have been banking on that for a while, and while it is a popular position, let’s not pretend that that is the end of the conversation – for a lot of even sympathetic citizens, even a lot of women, there are other issues at play. And the result? She wound up whiffing this election to an opponent who was even less coherent than in his previous iterations.

Maybe you agree. Maybe you saw the weaknesses and were willing to elide them. Maybe you were hoping she would take bold economic-policy stands instead of trying to appeal to everyone in a way that was simultaneously milquetoast and sinister in its commitment to the establishment position. I was too.

Maybe you disagree – maybe you point out the many ways in which she favored expanded access to healthcare, increases to the child tax credit, relief for first-time homebuyers. And you’d be right. But were those policies really what she was placing front and center? And when you examine those policies, how many of them were broad and universal? This is a politician who has never seen a social program she didn’t want to means-test to death (see: her scattershot programs to appeal to black and Latino males, or her utterly bizarre student loan forgiveness scheme from the 2020 primaries). Maybe you could point out that Trump’s tax plan is fucking bonkers. That’s true – it’s fucking bonkers. But it’s something different. And in the doldrums of the Biden years, that is meaningful.

The result? People just didn’t show up. Let’s see, 2 million fewer R voters, 13 million fewer D voters. Turns out she did an awfully good job of alienating her own base, who just sat this one out.

That’ll happen when war criminals like Dick Cheney are trotted out as supporters, while failing to peel off those suburban Republicans that you were told were so important at Lincoln Project dinners. That’ll happen when ya gesture vaguely at the prospect of peace while green-lighting every weapons sale to facilitate every crime against humanity that Bibi et al. are committing in its vicinity.

So just as an example, I’m sure those Detroit Arabs will be thinking about Vice President Harris’ commitment to the power of listening while their cousins are being turned to slurry with missiles paid for with their own taxes.

And liberal friends, I don’t blame you for your take either. You wanted the best of humanity to shine through, for evil to be defeated. I wish I shared your optimism and idealism, even when I think it’s incorrect.

So I also don’t lay the blame at the feet of the non-voter who feels alienated from the two-party system, at the progressive who couldn’t bring herself to support a genocide, hell even the deluded dude who still thinks America can return to its 1950s industrial might, anyone who wasn’t convinced by K.H.’s weak pitch in our digitized Gilded Age.

Unfortunately, a quick search reveals the mass scolding that was already underway well before the election (look at the hate piled on Chappell Roan for failing to show right-think, for instance). Please, please don’t do that.

I am terrified that this might reflect something deeper among a slice of the blue-voting public. While liberals (correctly) identify Trump’s crude authoritarianism, I have a sneaking suspicion that many are frankly subject to an authoritarian personality themselves. There is a certain percentage of the voting bloc that genuinely hates the idea that anyone uneducated or somehow unqualified deserves a say in how their country is run, that functionally believes that an army of technocrats should take over, assuming of course that they have the proper socially progressive opinions. This prioritization of credentials and good behavior is nothing more than the liberal version of the conservative conflation of divine grace and financial success. Both are loathsome and anti-democratic attitudes. Both are widespread among the professional classes.

So who do I blame for the shitty, shitty four years to come? Duh -- Kamala Harris and Joe Biden (for failing to step down much sooner), everyone in their closest orbit whose sinecures are safe no matter what the outcome, and the coterie of public and private sector overlords past and present who brought forth the Kali Yuga in which we now find ourselves. Also of course the usual professional-conservative snakes, but I expect them to continue to be serpentine. My most immediate j’accuse goes to the Democratic establishment for failing to ratchet that support over 50 percent. Even if they got close.

Now you might point out that as a cishet white dude with an email job, it’s easier for me to take this attitude and have less of a visceral rage because I’m less directly in the line of fire than members of marginalized communities – and that’s a completely fair fucking point. But I still think my analysis applies. I don’t think it’s productive to place the onus on ordinary people, even if their opinions are vile (something I might struggle to actually do in my personal life) and even if they are sometimes deserving of that onus. And I think to do so is the discursive equivalent of a regressive sin tax.

You might also point out that as I life abroad, I will be shielded from a lot of the evil shit that will be done. That is also a completely fair fucking point. Yet for obvious reasons of both cultural and political imperialism, America’s problem is everyone’s problem. And to everyone who screams “I’m moving to Canada!” every four years, I regret to inform you that America’s long shadow will follow you wherever you go, especially if you’re the information-addicted type that you almost certainly are if you say this regularly (and let’s stop before we get into the fact that Canadian politics is a cabal of mining interests with an aggressively and systematically fucked housing market).

That missive from Saint Bernie doesn’t exactly end on a positive note:

Will the big money interests and well-paid consultants who control the Democratic Party learn any real lessons from this disastrous campaign? Will they understand the pain and political alienation that tens of millions of Americans are experiencing? Do they have any ideas as to how we can take on the increasingly powerful Oligarchy which has so much economic and political power? Probably not.

In the coming weeks and months those of us concerned about grassroots democracy and economic justice need to have some very serious political discussions.

Stay tuned.

I will, in my commitments as an enfant de la patrie. Even if I’m a little too old to go full formez-[nos]-bataillons.

I will admit I don’t know what is to be done, but I’m going to do the only thing I know how to do (because let’s face it I’m shit at actual organizing) – doing my best to provide what funding I can, on my salary, for abortion pills and gender-affirming care in places where such things are hard to come by, by contributing to strike funds in critical labor actions, by finding means to help out the Palestinians whose babies are being butchered with the approbation of our empire. And to keep the lines of communication open, however shit gets fucked.

Being a Socialist Sucks, I Do It Anyway

Really, the title says it all. That’s my for-sale-baby-shoes-never-worn for life. But if you have similar desire to elaborate a catechism of masochism, in a manner inarguably said better by people cleverer than myself (and yeah, after I started this and before I finished it, I read Amber A’Lee Frost’s Dirtbag, shrill and smug as she is, she is also far more articulate than I am), read on.

So why am I this way?

To go back to the beginning, it was sometime as a teenager that I first had to confront the American political spectrum in any real way, with the beginner’s mind of a young person who has to begin to negotiate their place in the world. But it was hard not to feel alienated (pretty normal, that). Not only was the reprehensible Bush II in the White House, the Democrats seemed like pussies at best, coconspirators at worst. Even when Jon Stewart functioned as the lone voice in the wilderness against the editorial boards of the NYT, WaPo, and so forth in his steadfast opposition to the Iraq catastrophe, he just seemed so damn smug about it (although now that 15+ years have passed, I’ll give him credit for calling his series on Iraq “Mess o’ Potamia,” yeah that’s clever).

So I foolishly – since I knew I didn’t much care for Republicans or Democrats – thought of myself as a “centrist” of some kind. Both parties, despite whatever the ideological differences they may have, primarily consist of dipshits. I despise, and continue to despise, the conservative values of allegiance to nation, religion, and tradition, and I despise, and continue to despise, the American liberal use of guilt as an organizing principle. In my defense, I was like 15, and given the alienation of political news in America from concrete or material concerns, I barely thought about policy, as the news media had lulled me, into focusing on superficial cultural signifiers in lieu of analysis. And as I was disgusted by the era in which I found myself, I found myself likewise disgusted by the neocons and neolibs.

Dissatisfied, I cobbled together what I could. After all, humans are bricoleurs, and in particular teenagers. And about all the things, human are the most bricoleur about their politics, regardless of the labels they assign themselves. Which in my case was some combination of New Deal and Great Society social democracy, the legacy of the 19^th Century prairie populists and IWW, and more pertinently, Dead Kennedys and Rage Against the Machine lyrics.

It was only when I got out of my little yellow-dog Democrat town that I realized my ideas could be better understood not as centrism at all, but as socialism, or even (gasp!) communism. So, being a dork, I read and read. I read the people I continue to look back to, Adorno, Benjamin, Naomi Klein, big Karl M himself, and countless others on the way. I read, I argued, I tried to figure out my position in the world and on the world, beginning with the simple proposition that political democracy was only a first step, economic democracy would be second. But I knew even then that I was setting myself up for disappointment.

Because, well, one thing you learn early on is that socialists have a tendency to lose, and the finer the socialist, the more likely the loss. To find the truly noble spirits, you have to look to Salvador Allende, offing himself in Santiago to avoid capture by Pinochet’s men, to Karl Liebknecht and Rosa Luxemburg gunned down by German cavalrymen, to Fred Hampton shot in his sleep by the Chicago PD, to Jacopo Arbenz in lonely exile after the CIA organized his ouster, stalked by spies, forcibly separated from his family, until his own lonely death. And even the quiet reformers, the European socialists who pushed forward the meteoric rise in the average standard of living across Western Europe in the wake of World War II, all I had to do was pick up the newspaper to look at how their victories were even more quietly being reversed.

But in the darkness, one’s eyes are keen for a glimmer of light.

And in the wake of the 2008 financial crash, as I saw myself become yet another precarious subject tossed about on the waves, I saw points of light come and go. I saw the Occupy movement rise spontaneously and then fall just as spontaneously – despite the admittedly real attempts at sabotage, crackdown, and infiltration, law enforcement could safely bet that our own foolish horizontal organizing pattern would be our downfall. I watched with shock and delight as the 2016 Bernie campaign picked up massive momentum across the post-industrial parts of America, only to be ratfucked hard by the Democratic establishment who didn’t want anything to interfere with the coronation of Hillary Regina (whoops). I was really ready to reload for the 2020 Bernie campaign, after four years of idiot rule, my attitude more militant than ever… only to see the same pattern repeat itself, with my side being radically unprepared to handle an unfair playing field. I was delighted to see righteous anger in the aftermath of the murder of George Floyd (which while not being socialist protests, did highlight broader themes of injustice), only to see cops play the crybully card and emerge even better-funded.

And then as the pandemic continued, as our leaders shock-doctrined their way into even greater wealth, as ordinary people further barricaded their mind palaces of one kind or another -- whether that’s QAnon shit, or vampire’s-castle radlib tone policing, or zero COVID paranoia, or any other kind of flagellating attempt at answers at a time when all hope is extinguished.

We failed. The horror continues unabated.

“Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas. Five years later? Six? It seems like a lifetime, or at least a Main Era--the kind of peak that never comes again. San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of. Maybe it meant something. Maybe not, in the long run...but no explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch the sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. Whatever it meant...

There was madness in any direction, at any hour. If not across the Bay, then up the Golden Gate or down 101 to Los Altos or La Honda...You could strike sparks anywhere. There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right, that we were winning.

And that, I think was the handle--that sense of inevitable victory over the forces of Old and Evil. Not in any mean or military sense; we didn't need that. Our energy would simply prevail. There was no point in fighting--on our side or theirs. We all had the momentum; we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave.

So now, less than five years later, you can go up on a steep hill in Las Vegas and look West, and with the right kind of eyes you can almost see the high-water mark--that place where the wave finally broke and rolled back.”

And I, too, retreated. Not that I was ever a capital-A activist, but I was an enthusiastic participant, one with actual political hopes that are now pretty much dead. I was inside for a while, and then I wasn’t. My sense of hope, however flickering, never really returned.

My material circumstances have become less precarious, and I’ve settled into a placid bohemianism (none of my post-2008 alley-scrounged mattresses). I may not have gone full white picket fence, but I am approaching what the French have called “bobo” status for decades, a term which was once fine, but was then ruined by the criminally smooth-brained David Brooks. But suffice it to say that the volumes of Marx on my bookshelf abut my wine collection.

An old friend who once vomited in my face once had a better word for it, stilyagi status -- A reference to the Moscow youth toward the end of Stalin’s reign who cultivated a vaguely “American” aesthetic sense. No matter how much Westerners like to gush about the political subversion and transgression of countercultures, they pretty much all constitute a capitulation. It’s been a long time since anyone went from abjuring culottes to chopping off Louis XVI’s ugly head.

But – and I don’t know what sickness this is – I can’t bring myself to truly not care. I still thrill at every successful unionization drive and successful insurgent leftist political campaign in the Global South, I still feel the need to tend to my library of Frankfurt School thinkers, to seek consolation there, and pray that somehow a path forward remains. In my slightly pathetic way, I still have a vague hope that truth can still equal beauty.

The Post-Alito Online Liberal

Of course it happened. Of course in the wake of Justice Alito's memo regarding his plan to eviscerate reproductive rights in America, I made the mistake of looking at social media. And of course what I saw was an army of liberals screeching at anyone who didn't vote for Hillary in 2016 – you know the type, all the “you did this” and what not. I would put up some screenshots here, but they are kind of self-evident.

Because if there's one thing that Democrats should be doing going into a midterm election, it's blaming individuals rather than actually examining and going after systems of power.

Unfortunately, in contemporary American liberalism, this isn't a bug, it's a feature. Having given up hope of any form of solidarity or collective action, having reduced every behavior to the level of the atomized individual whose personal moral value is, in Protestant fashion, to be weighed, in perfect lockstep with the neoliberal forces submitting all human life to the cruel logic of market capitalism – save for a few bare, viciously means-tested remaining fragments of the mid-century welfare state – the only thing left to do is to turn to individual actors, and to blame, hector, nag, and whine.

Of course this is amplified by the Internet in all the worst possible ways – all the armchair Ukraine experts and Kremlinologists on Twitter and Reddit have transformed into constitutional-law scholars who are fully able to ascertain the impact of the memo they read half an article about on Politico before rage-skimming on the Loving and Griswold decisions.

So I will take this opportunity to provide a corrective, and, being a good leftist who, as the late great Michael Brooks put it, seeks to be ruthless with systems and kind to people, I will direct my line of questioning at the structures and the persons who hold high ranks within them.

How many of the people who stayed home in the 2016 election in vital swing states were those much-feared but few-in-number Bernie bros who couldn't plug their nose, and how many were people disengaged from the political system after the losses of good union jobs and the destruction of communities in the wake of the free trade programs that the Democrats enthusiastically endorsed?

How many people didn't vote, and don't generally vote, because they suffered under Bill Clinton and Joe Biden's 1994 Crime Bill, people who overwhelmingly come from poor backgrounds, who are predominantly black and brown, whose family members were forced into a carceral-industrial system propagated by both parties, whose very voting rights were in many cases stripped away, and as for the remainder, how many of them realized that they and people like them were going to be fucked no matter what the electoral process was?

How many people had their brains permanently broken by the right-wing media that emerged like mushrooms after the rain in the wake of Bill Clinton's 1996 Telecommunications Act, and have emerged thinking that anyone to the left of Mitch McConnell is taking part in a child grooming cult, permanently alienated from reasonable discourse?

How many laws weren't passed to help enshrine abortion rights, instead resting upon a Supreme Court precedent that even the center-left's yass-qween champion Ruth Bader Ginsburg called a dangerous overreliance, especially at a time when 80 fucking percent of Americans are in favor of at least some access to abortion. 

Simply, how many were just checked out because they had never, in their lives, seen any meaningful response to their abject misery, administration after administration?

And really, you're yelling at us jaded leftists?

By the way, I did pinch my nose. I did vote contra Trump, twice. But I won't judge people for not doing so, because a big part of what it is to be a socialist is to recognize that our political system is broken.

To the social media ninnies, I feel you too. You're at the bargaining stage of grief. All of that being said, while I won't judge individuals for their political action or inaction in a complex environment, I will judge individuals for actively being dicks. So fuck you for that. But let's move on.

Once I helped a nice young woman get an abortion once (none of my DNA involved, by the way). Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to find a way to buy some pills for some nice ladies in Texas to terminate their pregnancies, and I encourage you to do the same. And if you want to do some deeper questioning, come and join. We on the populist left are more than happy to welcome fellow travelers.

The Fall of Kabul and Meditations on the Useless

 So it happened, something that I knew was inevitable -- the shot of a Chinook helicopter leaving the US Embassy in Kabul (pricetag $800 million) with the eerie resemblance to the famed Hubert Van Es shot of the people lining up to get on the Air America chopper waiting on the roof of the CIA building on Gia Long Street in Central Saigon in 1975.

 

The cynic in me assumes that some photographer scoped out that very angle over the past week, as the fall of Kabul became inevitable.

 

 

Of course there will be many, many dumb takes in the coming days -- hell, they're already starting to pile up.

There will be the unreconstructed Bush-era neocons who openly advocate a forever war (David Frum, Max Boot, and Co.) have migrated over to the Democrats, and they will be pushing every image of suffering in an attempt to tug your heartstrings and try to convince you that this is somehow your responsibility (while of course remaining silent about American complicity in Syria, Libya, Yemen...). There will be the poor deluded Afghans who worked hand in hand with the American puppet state and still somehow think the US had even half a chance to turn Afghanistan into a functioning democracy -- I mean, after all, there are still former VNA officers waving the red-and-yellow striped flag of South Vietnam around the Asian enclaves of South Seattle. Of course America's ruddy-jowled Trumpy uncles will loudly declaim that this would never have happened in an America made great again, before they keel over from Cheesy Gordita Crunch-related complications.

Secretary of State Blinken of course had to respond that America won in Afghanistan (winner of this year's Robert McNamara Memorial Prize for Military-Industrial Doublespeak). Meanwhile, part-time Cthulhu worshipper Mitch McConnell said nah, fuck it, send more troops in, and talked about the "embarrassment of a superpower laid low," as if this superpower wasn't laid low by our nation's failures in Iraq, and as if a quasi-functioning Afghanistan wasn't just a house of cards that could be taken out by the Taliban in a week's time.

I was 14 when 9/11 happened. The general mood in the classroom in Mrs. Woodman's 10th grade French class was basically "whoaaaa, dude." There was a lot of talk on the media about coming together as a nation. What I basically felt, though, even as a 14 year old, was just an innate sense of the fuckedness of things to come.

You all know what happened next. How Afghanistan was invaded with a bare minimum of a rationale. How many years of idiotic flag-waving, how many lives lost and ruined as a result. How many smiling executives at Halliburton and Lockheed Martin. How many smug New York Times editorials about "responsible global leadership" or some similarly dumb non-concept. How many empty promises by Obama and Trump about ending the conflict. How many strands of the social safety net in America -- or what's left of it -- shredded in the name of fiscal responsibility even as the Pentagon budget grew ever more bloated.

Over the years of course, the war itself simply became background noise, an occasional disaster from the far side of the planet, mediated largely through Predator strikes. There were so many of them, and America was tangentially involved in most of them. They became one more horror which barely registered in 2015 or so, a few inches of scanned text on a news site between the latest dish on Kim and Kanye and an ad for dick pills.

Possibly my favorite joke of all time:

Q: What's the difference between a Jihadi training camp and a Pakistani primary school?

A: Don't ask me, I'm just a drone pilot.

In memoriams to American veterans over the past several years, the various military imbroglios of the early 21st Century have all become lumped together, and veterans of all conflicts great and small are classified as having participated in the "war on terror." The nebulous verbiage of the Bush administration has become accepted as standard terminology, because the whole thing is so clumsy that to actually name the geographies and conflicts would almost be a tacit acceptance of their failures and ineptitudes.

Well now it took 20 years, 3 trillion dollars, and countless Afghans vaporized through drone and conventional warfare, and this is what we get as a final thought: the predictable image of a helicopter on a roof -- little more than a meme.

Notes on Dying Vaccine Refusers

The annual CPAC Conference is, year-in and year-out, one of the American political scene's most reliable sources of lulz. You may remember, for instance, Trump hugging the American flag like Linus hugging his blankie. While a lot of it is just anodyne conservative bullshit -- repugnant cable news talking heads who are mildly ashamed of their Yale degrees doing their best to hoot and holler to an upper middle-class suburban audience that view themselves as the last defenders of Real America -- you will inevitably get a pretty wide swathe of truly dumb motherfuckers with glazed-over eyes who actually smoke their own supply. These -- the Diamond and Silks and the Lauren Boeberts and the Mike Cernoviches -- are of course far more entertaining. And you will also get people who say shit that's so dumb that you can't help but assume that they are charlatans, as charming in their way as the Artful Dodger, before you realize that one should never ascribe to malice what one can ascribe to stupidity.

Which is why it should come as no surprise that at this year's conference -- themed "America Uncanceled," because conservatives now interpret even the mildest forms of criticism as "cancellations" and proceed to whine like bitches -- featured Alex Berenson (also a shamefaced Yalie, so he's a toofer), the onetime spy novelist, self-proclaimed "COVID contrarian," and author of a book called Tell Your Children: The Truth About Marijuana, Mental Illness, and Violence (won't somebody pleeeeeease think of the children?!) getting an audience of cheers for America's failure to vaccinate.

Of course Anthony Fauci called this "horrifying," which was, of course, Berenson's intention. Make a trollish statement, get the cretins to bay along, and BAM! The lib doth protest too much, methinks.

This has, of course, been the animating force of the right for over a decade. Failing to gin up public support for supply-side economics in the post-2008 Crash era, or foreign military adventures in the post-Iraq era, and given the fragility of the white-evangelical base in an increasingly non-religious, increasingly socially liberal era, they are increasingly settling on one of the most reliable emotional angles: pure resentment.

This is largely the Democrats' fault as well. By supporting reprehensibly hawkish foreign policy and Wall Street cronyism, the Democratic Party failed to establish a platform other than nice-guy centrism, and by refusing to support even broadly popular policies like Medicare for All (70 percent support) and the Green New Deal (60 percent approval) which alienate their donor class, the Dems have adopted a smug, adults-in-the-room stance that benefits nobody.

Meaning that the Republican party's ideology -- living in a world where their old cornerstone values of respect for tradition have become utterly passe -- has simply become being an absolute cunt to everyone around you.

This is why I can't stand the liberals who think that if you just give people the Correct Facts, they'll stop thinking the Bad Things and will start thinking the Good Things. And article-of-faith statements like "believe science" just come off as finger-wagging. Sure, there are non-committed people who are persuadable, and in my experience a lot of younger people are persuadable as soon as they finally get offline, but roughly 25 percent of America who are irreversibly brain-poisoned.

Which is why in places like Florida and the Ozarks, cases are surging among people who refuse to get vaccinated.

I always sympathize with the skeptical perspective -- I was actually pretty skeptical of the efficacy of non-N95 masks until enough evidence mounted to convince me that this skepticism was misplaced. And among minority populations that have often found themselves to be unwilling guinea pigs, the skepticism is a lot more understandable -- wrong, but at least understandable. But the racial gap in COVID vaccination is narrowing fast, leaving a group of predominantly white, predominantly male, predominantly Republican stalwarts. Sure, these people are more concentrated among the lowest income bracket, but interestingly, the number of white vaccine refusers is higher at the $50,000 to $75,000 income bracket than the $25,000 to $50,000 bracket.

And something tells me this is not really even "skepticism."

Skepticism as I understand it is a questioning of grounds and motivation, a search for empirical evidence, a commitment to analytical thinking, and perhaps above all else a rigorous self-examination and an attempt to root out one's own biases and misperceptions and misinterpretations. And something tells me that most of these people have not reached their conclusions after a careful analysis of the scientific literature.

All of which seems pretty doubly absurd when you live, as I do, in a country whose government has spectacularly biffed the vaccine rollout, where people are clambering desperately for protection.

Republican politicians in places like Arkansas and Missouri are understandably freaking the fuck out, realizing that they can no longer control the narrative of the very base they had spent decades agitating, as their hospitals fill and their citizenry dies off. Meanwhile, in Florida, Ron DeSantis, the fancy lad that even my nerdy ass wants to shove in a locker, attempts to ride the tiger by speaking out against "vaccine passports" to protect his presidential aspirations, while quietly maintaining an exemption for cruise ships for fear of the Carnival Sensation becoming a masque of the red death.

To which I have to say, at this point -- after nearly half a century of very deliberate machinations by the ruling class that needed some kind of ideological scaffolding for the protection of their wealth -- chickens came home to roost motherfucker.

At this point, the path to herd immunity and the possibility of a post-pandemic life is being impeded by the vaccine hesitant. They, at this point, are bearing the worst of it, considering the fact that they're the ones getting sick, along with those with the extreme misfortune of being their vulnerable relatives or minor children.

When I think about those whose vaccine skepticism has led to the sudden realization that there isn't a ventilator available, I wonder what they're thinking. Maybe there's some self-reflection, maybe that fabled road-to-Damascus moment. Or maybe there is just an ideological commitment to the end, a refusal to the last to come to terms with one's own reality. Or maybe there is an ironic detachment, in its own way a final trolling.

But unlike so many liberals, I won't call this a "tragedy," as a tragedy is a circumstance in which men and women strive for good, and due to their own failings or circumstances beyond their control, are condemned to failure. This isn't a tragedy. This is America sharting its pants.

So I'll just say the following to that vaccine refuser on his deathbed.

Now you're fucking dead. Sucks for you dawg.

Pyrrhic Victory

“If we are victorious in one more battle with the Romans, we shall be utterly ruined.”

- Pyrrhus of Epirus after the Battle of Asculum, as reported in Plutarch's Lives

I have learned, over the past few years, to brace myself for the dumbest possible outcome in the world of politics. This isn't, I should stress, the worst possible outcome. It is the dumbest. If the worst possible outcome is goose-stepping fascists and a highly motivated cabal of elite operators relentlessly assassinating dissidents, the dumbest possible outcome is a neoliberal government in which austerity is accompanied by vague hand-waving towards social justice issues and performative identity politics, and some fat piggly-eyed pasty fuck with delusions of military grandeur in an improvised flak jacket spraying Sunday shoppers with automatic gunfire in an act of stochastic rage at a suburban CVS.

And this is what my crystal ball has been telling me for months – a wave of blue mail-in votes, followed by a wave of red votes on election night itself, followed by a narrow, tooth-and-nail Democratic victory. Presumably to be followed by weeks of protracted court battles, bursts of occasional right-wing violence, and four years of utter fecklessness (not to mention a probable repeat of the Republican backlashes of 1994 and 2010).

A summation from someone more educated than I:

“Right now, what we are facing is a catastrophe. A Republican Senate, a narrow Democratic house majority, and a Democrat president who did not win by a big margin, who will be reviled for various reasons from day one by Trump supporters and adherents to the opposite side, who has conservative instincts, who will now have both a scapegoat in Mitch McConnell for his refusal to do anything that might move the country to the left, anything that might improve the lot of the most vulnerable in this society, should he even have that inclination. Not only provide a scapegoat, but he will also have the opportunity to enforce what could be a brutal austerity regime in the midst of a continuing pandemic in the midst of an economic crisis. I mean, before this election, I had pretty much no hope for the Democratic Party, and after it, it's pretty much the same deal.” 

- Virgil Texas in conversation with Briahna Joy Gray, Bad Faith podcast

We live in a time when more Americans than ever before believe in, at least to some degree, what I believe in: universal healthcare, some form of UBI, a higher minimum wage, an end to military misadventures, the overhaul of the criminal justice system, a Green New Deal, and support for unions and worker co-ops to help resolve the contradiction between labor and capital. Let us be reminded, that no matter what the mealy-mouthed editorial boards of the New York Times and Atlantic tell you, it was pro-Medicare for All Democrats who managed to carry swing House districts, and that while Florida went for Trump, Florida also went for a 15 dollar an hour minimum wage.

And yet the gap between political will and political representation has rarely been starker. The ostensible party of the left is led by a senile puppet for the donor class and a fucking cop, advised by all manner of Wall Street cronies and liberal war hawks – people who would have been called “Rockefeller Republicans” in another era (and even Nelson Rockefeller was in many respects more liberal than these fucks). While the world burns. Literally.

OK, I voted for Biden, regrettably. It seemed like it wouldn't hurt, and I didn't see how a Biden presidency could be worse than a Trump presidency, even if I doubted it would be much better. A bit like the French communists in the Chirac-Le Pen election of 2001, who walked into the polls with clothespins on their noses.

I'm sure plenty of nice center-lefties would tell me – and I hear this dull wording again and again – that Biden had “the most progressive platform of all time.” Well, were his policies anywhere near memorable enough to excite voters? Or were they the sort of means-tested nonsense pushed by DC wonks? Were there even any attempts to convince anyone of these policies, or was the sole form of messaging “not Trump”? Do you even trust this putative platform? Or should I believe that Biden's and Harris' records speak for themselves?

And so we're left, as I said at the beginning, a serious case of the dum-dums. The notion that those of us on the left can in any way “push” Biden leftwards or have any leverage to do so (versus a well-organized apparatus to maintain the Democratic Party in its post-Clinton form as a neoliberal entity, and one willing to capitulate to Republican excess instead of actually building working-class politics) is absurd.

I'm sure I'll get people saying that this sort of doomer mindset is a product of my own privilege. To which I respond that standpoint epistemology is pearl-clutching masquerading as empathy, and is indicative of a gray-faced Protestant ethos suffused with late-capitalist narcissism.

So what is to be done? I really don't know. Fuck.

Death in the Age of Twitter

When I first heard about the not-untimely but decidedly time-unfortunate death of Ruth Bader Ginsburg, I did the worst possible thing – I went to social media. This is akin to checking WebMD when you experience an innocuous discomfort of one kind or another, and come out thinking you have lymphoma.

A depressingly large number of Twitter liberals' automatic response was (natch) to blame the left. The name “Jill Stein” was trotted out yet again as a reason for why the world sucks (much like Nader back during the Bush years), because instead of actually, you know, interrogating why people don't trust a party that has walked back every attempt at economic justice it's made by cozying up to Wall Street. Because if there's one thing you need in an election year, apparently it's by wagging fingers and alienating potential allies. If Trump is reelected, I'm fully expecting the Blame Bernie Brigade to come back in full force, and I'm expecting to be nagged for my lack of party loyalty.

And of course there were weird, angry takes (second stage of grief and all that). One that struck me as particularly bizarre was a seemingly widespread finger-wag against people using the phrase “rest in power” for white people. If you believe this, you have a stupid opinion. I hold you in a certain measure of contempt for having that opinion. Your entertaining this opinion and other associated flavors of histrionics and umbrage is a symptom of a broader problem with the American left. You might still be a lovely dinner guest though.

But ultimately, the depressing fact is that the Supreme Court was already lost for a generation ever since Brett Kavanaugh slithered his way into the chamber.

I also had to ask myself what Justice Ginsburg really did for the left, and I suspect many of her most ardent supporters would be hard-pressed to name actual policies she pushed through during her tenure (there were some of note, but they were relatively few). Rather, people are more familiar with her jeremiad dissents, which while eloquently phrased statements of purpose, are at the end of the day the rallying cry of the defeated.

And this is perhaps mirrored by the fact that, given the recalcitrant American right, the center left's response has been to less eloquently screech “THAT'S NOT FAIR!” at every repugnant thing McConnell and Co. do.

At the end of the day this is another reduction of politics to bien-pensant aesthetics. Lacking real victories, nice American liberals have simply been content over the past 20 years to rest on their own smugness. I remember the feeling of paralytic horror at watching The Daily Show in my teens, during the Iraq War, and the general attitude of “Well, look at THOSE dumbasses” towards the local yokels baying for Arab blood while ignoring the fact that the New York Times editorial staff and their colleagues (Frum, Friedman, and the rest) attempted to provide intellectual scaffolding for imperialist idiocy. At my most cynical moments, it's an attitude that seems to represent an almost Weimar-level phobia of and disgust towards mass politics, with results that invariably bite liberalism in its ass.

Putting one's faith in an unelected court is cheering on your champions rather than taking part in the process of mass politics (not that I'm a model, I just do my best to fund where I can when I can... oh, and join the DSA, folks). Indeed, Ginsburg herself was critical of the process of Roe v. Wade, pointing out that by settling the matter of abortion in the courts during a time of liberalizing abortion laws rather than in the democratic sphere, a backlash was invited without sufficient public consensus to act as a counterbalance. Unsurprisingly, Jacobin published a fair amount of good analysis on this subject.

But to be a leftist is, unfortunately, by and large, setting yourself up for disappointments. Consistently. As someone who believes that working towards a socialist society is the necessary fulfillment of the mission of the Enlightenment, I have to accept that I will be unhappy more often than I am happy with the world at large, and it's because I know how much better it could be.

Political engagement is, to a certain degree, an utterly quixotic mission that will drive you fucking insane. Even those conservatives who have scored so many global victories over the past several years can't escape. Their worldview is fraught with a wild loathing of the world as it has become, as it has transformed into something that deviates from their myopic perspectives. At the ground level, American conservatives seem in particular seem far more occupied with stomping their feet at the perceived transgressions of liberals and socialists (and being completely unable to differentiate the two) than actually forming anything like a coherent perspective.

A sheriff, spitting through his mustache: “You know if you'd told me 20 years ago I'd see children walking the streets of our Texas towns with green hair, bones in their noses, I just flat out wouldn't have believed you.”

Tommy Lee Jones: “Signs and wonders.”

And so my conclusion is that an old lady who worked hard and did some good things has died. She will doubtless be replaced by some cross-clutching fuckwad who in any decent society would be stripped of their judicial power and forced to walk the streets wearing a barrel with shoulder straps holding up a sign saying “Will adjudicate for food.” But I can't perceive it as the apocalyptic event that so many liberals perceive it to be.

At this particularly stupid time in history, that baseline annoyance is to a certain degree something I expect. I had thought Trump and Hillary were the two worst presidential candidates of my lifetime. Nope, Trump and Biden. It can always get worse. I know that I will have a materially worse life than my parents. That sucks. But as it is something I have no control over, I accept it.

My only irrational hope left is that things will get better before the seas rise... too much... and that I can leave the world with it pointed in a different direction. Somewhat.

A Note From Someone Far Away From South Minneapolis

It's always strange seeing one's country from the outside in, now more than ever. And that goes double when the places you see flashing across the news are places you once knew so intimately.

George Floyd was murdered outside the shop I used to go to on the regular on 38th and Chicago in Minneapolis, and when I saw the burning of Lake Street, I saw the corners where a middle-aged man tried persistently to scam me out of a few bucks, where I got yelled at for refusing to give a girl coming out of the club a ride on the handlebars of my bike on a stoned dawn ride home, where I happily ate tortas on curbsides.

And what seem awfully like violent, right-wing attacks keep occurring at the corners in Seattle where I once drank a bottle of wine in the bucket of a front-end loader, where I spent afternoons reading on the grass, where I once had a long kiss goodbye.

I know now is not the time for dreamy musings, but I still have them, and other than monetary payments to righteous groups – my sole attempt at praxis – it's been my way of dealing with the insanity of America. Endlessly musing on my patio in the monsoon rains far, far from the action. A brief scroll through social media is filled with exhortations to do a something, to educate oneself, and I don't know what to say – I've done a fair bit of my due diligence, I've read Angela Davis and Malcolm X and Eldridge Cleaver and bell hooks with admiration. I've tried to be a good listener, as someone who grew up in a remarkably white-bread town and didn't really understand the concept of privilege in my heart, through and through, until I saw a Seattle bus driver let me through on an expired transfer before examining the transfers of a group of black teenagers like a gem dealer trying to spot a fake. That being said, I don't participate in the conversation, really, because my voice isn't worth much of a damn.

But despite my best attempts to keep up my odd, perhaps irrational, optimism of the will, my delight at the realization that I'm witness to the largest civil rights movement in America in half a century, my pessimism of the intellect keeps pushing through.

In addition to my fear of reprisals, whether by white stochastic terrorists or by sitting senators, I'm just as terrified that any kind of real change will ultimately be elided in lieu of individual therapeutic guilt among the white professional classes and pure symbolic gesture by the levers of capital.

My first worries began with the Thai celebrities proclaiming that “black lives matter” even as they gleefully cheer on the jackboots who run their own country, and thereby making a statement that says more about their attempt to identify with the first-world metropole than any kind of real compassion or concern for workers or the poor. It wasn't exactly helped by Senate Democrats who had enthusiastically signed onto the Clinton crime bill donning kente cloth like they're in Arrested Development (the '90s R&B group, not the Bluth Family), or by Mitt motherfucking Romney joining a march in a sorry attempt to redeem himself.

Furthermore, as more and more people have signed on to the premise of, you know, actually taking the experiences of black Americans into consideration, I keep seeing more and more attempts by large corporations and the capitalist state to attempt to exculpate themselves. It's the litany of brands trying to woke-ify and blackwash themselves, despite their rapacious greed, union-busting, and rent-seeking. It's the campaign to rename Fort Benning in Georgia (named for proud defender of the Peculiar Institution and generally worthless human Henry Lewis Benning), and ignoring the fact that it hosts the Western Hemisphere Institute, which has spent the past 70 years training nun-raping Latin American strongmen as one of the single vilest apparatuses of American empire.

These are simply new manifestations of old fears. In the struggle for Irish independence, James Connolly spoke of his trepidation that any kind of revolutionary change would be co-opted, phrased with a Hibernian charm and a Victorian flourish that I cannot hope to match:

“England would still rule you to your ruin, even while your lips offered hypocritical homage at the shrine of that Freedom whose cause you had betrayed.”

Like I said, I'm far away from the metaphorical England and the metaphorical Freedom. And hope is not dead in me yet – if it was I wouldn't be at my laptop right now, I'd have the windows blacked out and a freezer bag full of Burmese heroin on my coffee table – but I need to bear witness to a certain degree.

To that end, I am heartened to large degree. I'm glad that people seem to recognize that not-even-half measures don't cut it, I'm glad the black-square Instagram thing got all the derision it deserved, I'm glad a certain inflection point has been reached. Even as I'm terrified that white moderates who fill Twitter with GIFs of clapping black women are going to derail shit and become active hindrances the moment more serious changes become the next pragmatic steps.

Keep pushing on. Eyes on the prize, motherfuckers.

The Mask of the Red Death

As an American abroad, it's again one of those times when I'm expected to explain my countrymen.

This usually isn't asked out of any genuine concern, but out of bemusement. After all, it's understandable why there's a certain schadenfreude in seeing the wealthiest, most powerful nation in the world suddenly brought to its knees. But as someone who is at the end of the day an American, what it means is greater immiseration for those with whom I share a passport and a flat accent, and after the bodies are swept away, as a man more perceptive than I once said, “everything stays the same, but worse.”

I try to stay off social media, but I couldn't help but notice the ongoing arguments over masks that are apparently the topic du jour back home. Given the social stratum of which I am a part, the opinions I see are naturally far more pro-mask. I will say up front, that this is a complex issue, and I don't see one side or the other as explicitly, 100 percent right – rather, it's dependent on a lot of material-world questions, all revolving around what mask you use, how you use it, and what other measures you're taking – but that kind of nuance doesn't translate online. What seems worth interrogating as a layman, rather, is the social climate surrounding the issue, which can be as interesting as the scientific and epidemiological reality.

When I see pro-mask Facebook posts and memes, the touchstones are the standards of liberal discourse – the importance of looking out for one's neighbor, “believing science,” a nod towards success stories in other countries, and a palpable disgust at those for whom convenience = freedom. Now, those are basically good sentiments. I, too, like being kind and educated and cosmopolitan, and I, too, dislike puerile American conservatism.

The reason shit like this drives me absolutely nuts is that it is – yet again – the American reduction of what should be a cold-blooded and scientific issue to yet another goddamn, motherfucking culture war.

Like all culture wars, it is predicated upon individual and ultimately consumer action (paired, of course, with plenty of online scolding) rather than any kind of collective effort. As far as I'm concerned, if you think that consumption choices can function as a form of activism, you're as big a fucking rube as the upper middle class cunt who goes to a protest so he can take his wife to The Cheesecake Factory again – the difference being is that the plastic straw-eschewer and the mask-reminder don't do active harm.

I can empathize. You're probably stuck at home, either laid off or working from the living room, stuck with your family members who grate on you, or stuck alone, trying desperately to stay positive, trying to not feel helpless, trying not to feel like you're on a rocket to the sun, and no one is offering any valid solutions. Whether you're aware of it or not, the complete neoliberal evisceration of public services has probably fucked you, and the political and executive classes as a whole don't give a shit about you. So you click a button in the vague hope that something, anything will happen, and it feels like a measure of taking control.

The desire to act, even if your actions are purely performative, is of course not limited to American soil. At my neighborhood market in Bangkok, staff were diligently requiring masks and temperature checks. Never mind that people were rubbing their mitts all over their faces, that the cheap thermometers were likely unreliable (and irrelevant for incubating cases), that there wasn't even a semblance of social distance, and that people were, y'know, eating. The performance was to be followed.

For what it's worth, given that it's a social norm in this part of the world, I've been wearing a mask in enclosed spaces, even though I know that given the way that the humidity accumulates and the fact that it's an ordinary cloth mask, it's probably more of a risk than wearing nothing, and even though I'll probably have to remove it to communicate with a cashier (you try speaking your third language through a thick cloth mask, my dudes). I follow the performative role, simply to reduce friction. Which is why we do a lot of things, really.

The sudden spike in popularity of Contagion points to the fact that in trying times, people need metaphor systems and structures in order to not feel like their clawing at the padded walls. I haven't watched it, and I don't particularly care to.

However, I did watch Roger Corman's 1964 masterpiece, The Masque of the Red Death, with gorgeous cinematography by Nicholas Roeg (who would later go on to direct, fucking my mind with the one-two punch of The Man Who Fell to Earth and Don't Look Now), and starring Vincent Price as the leader of a coterie of wealthy perverts who try to lock themselves behind palace walls doing shits-and-giggles Satanism and having weirdly joyless orgies, trying to hide from the plague ravaging the countryside. Villagers seeking refuge are shot, plots are made, survivors are few, and the Red Death comes for everyone.

This is the metaphor I prefer. Death stalks us all – you are fundamentally powerless as an individual in an impassive universe, and to deny the existence of death is to make yourself a grotesque. The illusion of control is a great lie, and the courtiers, merrily letting the people die, concerned with saving their own skin, suffer the same fate. Salvation is a fool's errand, whether from God or Satan, and heavens and hells are human creations.

Granted, this is pretty much textbook existentialism – something conspicuously absent from contemporary film, when you come to think of it – but it was somehow comforting to feel a bit less insane. Which, in turn, means that this was my own balm, my own narrative comfort. As was writing this.